Baby talks

Hey my darling baby. I haven't seen you, but I feel you inside my swollen tummy. I haven't heard you, but I sense your soft breathing.
You are growing within me; going through all my emotions since the past 7.5 months.
You are getting your nutrition from what I eat.
At times, I wonder if I am giving you the right food, in the right quantity, at the right time.
I hope I am doing everything right.
I can’t wait to see you in flesh and blood, to hear your ba-ba-ba-ba. Oh, what fun it will be to wake up in the dawn to see your smiling face, listening to your cries of hunger or discomfort, feeding you, bathing you. I am looking forward to playing with you with all those gorgeous toys offered in the market.
At times I feel so inadequate and unsure about whether I will be able to take care of you. How will I know that you are not feeling well? How will I know that all you need is a kiss and squeeze from me? How will I know that you are hungry? How will I know that you do not like the new baby soap that I got for you?
Somewhere from within me comes the answer, "You will know with time. You will be a wonderful mother." I break into a wide grin thinking, "Yes, I can do it." Of course, I am not born with all the knowledge in the world. I am going to fall, and learn with my mistakes. Celebrating my mistakes will make me a strong person.
The big lesson that you have taught me is to appreciate every moment in life, worrying about the endless things in life is so stupid.
As you begin to grow, you will soon realize that we live in an image bound society. “So what do you do?” is the most famous question asked as soon as you meet anyone.
What will your mom say? “I am a stay-at-home-mom” or “I work in so-and-so company as so-and-so.”
In today’s times, it’s a no-win situation. Either way, I have to defend my choices. If I choose to be a career mom, I will be seen as a career obsessed parent who has neglected her only child for money, and if I opt to be a stay-at-home mom, I will be looked down upon by others as someone who is incapable of taking care of both, home and work.
So is it possible to have a satisfying career and personal life? The answer is a resounding yes. I may need to revisit my expectations from my self. Is it essential to have a picture perfect home? Is it crucial to bake a cake from the scratch?
I refuse to join in this mummy war, and choose to be responsible for my choices. A choice that I am going to make based on my family wellness, needs and desires. Whatever is my choice, my love and attention is what you will get in plentiful. A loving home filled with joy, laughter and warmth is what you will get.